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On not really fitting in but being okay with that.
The other day I was walking through LKF – as you do on a Tuesday evening… - and I caught a glimpse of my favourite thing about that infamous district. The proud neon red sign proclaiming: ‘Dance to the beat of your own drum’.

For as long as I can remember, I tried my hardest to fit in. When I was 5, the kids at primary school loved to make me feel like I was different – I was the only Chinese person there until the summer. When I moved to secondary school in a different town, my new classmates told me my accent was ‘too posh’. I simply didn’t like much of the same things they did after school, preferring to go home, crack out a Harry Potter book and hang out in my garden.

But I tried. I religiously straightened my already straight hair. I broke Mum’s rules and sneaked makeup on for school. I got MSN and studied then copied how everyone else laid out their usernames. (Often MiCHeLLe* rainbowemoji emolyric ♥ Randomboysname.) I tried my hardest to be just like… them.

Minds change like the weather though and once I turned 16, in Year 11, I decided enough was enough. I loved hanging out with my friends that the rest-of-the-year called losers. (Actually we were called much worse but you learn to live with these things, oddly and sadly.) Those ‘loser’ friends? They’re my best friends and my rocks now. In University, studying fashion journalism, I started this here blog. When my coursemates found out, half of them started calling me a Z-list celeb behind my back. Lol. Blogs weren’t a done thing back then, we were just starting out in pretty Blogland after all. Now? No I probably won’t give you a ‘shoutout’ in return for two-faced behaviour.

If these experiences taught me anything, they taught me that right now while I meander aimlessly through a blogging identity crisis, it’s always better to be yourself and dance to the beat of your own drum. Honestly? I adore reading hundreds of blogs but personally I have little to no interest in that weird lattice edge flowerpot for my makeup brushes. I have like 2 makeup brushes. I don’t want to know which five things every other blogger recommends. I tried them and they’re crap. I don’t have anything marble and frankly I have no space to pretend like I want slabs of it around. I don’t have white painted floorboards because those would be a goddamn nightmare in humid Hong Kong. Honestly? I’m not a cookie-cutter blogger and I’m completely fine with that, but it feels like no-one else is.

What I do have is a notebook-ful of ideas. (More than) a smattering of blogger insecurity. I have less spare time than I can comprehend. I have to keep up without keeping up. Blogland, I love you, but right now I need to work things out.

Inspired by a post by Gem. That woman is a star.

19 comments

  1. I think blogland needs more bloggers who aren't afraid to dance to the beat of their own drum. I'm not saying I dislike everything that is trendy in blogging (I do like some of it) but I think what makes blogging so unique and wonderful is that it is a space you can cultivate however you want. It can be easy to get caught up in the pressures just as it was in junior high but I think at the end of the day blogging is so much more rewarding when you write about what inspires you and makes you you!

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  2. Guilty of the flowerpot brush holder, 5 things posts and marble work surface!

    I think its important to do what you love, I pick up the trends that I love and leave the rest. I've always loved your blog Michelle x

    Sophie | SophiesMakeupBlog

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  3. Such a great post- if you're not blogging for yourself and being true to what you love and being honest then what's the point?

    http://www.abigailalicex.com

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  4. 'Dance to the beat of your own drum' is such a wonderful quote and I'm so pleased you shared it :) I think I've told you before that your blog was the very first one I started reading and was pretty much the reason I became a blogger, so as a long time reader of yours I've always absolutely loved your content because it is truly unique and I always get excited when a new post of yours pops up on my bloglovin feed. Totally with you on the whole marble and white floor boards, it's becoming a little too cliched and so many blogs seem to be morphing into each other which is such a shame. I admire you for this post and for wanting to stick to your own tastes, it's what makes a fantastic blog in my opinion :)
    Love Holly x


    www.thehollydays4.blogspot.co.uk

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  5. Of course I still love a lot of what's trending in Blogland and in fact a lot of my favourite blogs fall into the category I mentioned but I seriously miss finding out the unique quirks and interests of bloggers. I think I'm going to take a back seat and work out what my blog wants to be (:

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  6. Ah but I adore your blog even so ;)

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  7. I tried to sift through the Explore tab on Bloglovin' yesterday and it was just telling me how to blog. Gawd dammit I've blogged for 5 years this way and that's how I shall do it. I think I've reached a point where whilst I want my blog to be fun, it just isn't, I just can't work out exactly why. Le sigh!

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  8. Aw Holly - I really needed to read this. So, so kind of you as always <3 I'm super nosy at heart so I think I mainly miss people chatting about what they genuinely got up to and what they're into. I'm 100% positive that there's more to us all than endless white space and empty candle jars! All my love! x

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  9. AMEN!

    I couldn't have said it better, although I do love marble slabs and I do own a ridiculous amount of makeup brushes... Oops?!

    - Elodie x

    www.elle-yeah.com

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  10. For me, it really depends on my mood. And on the company, of course. I hate crowds so I usually avoid nightclubs. Instead, I prefer going to the pub for a chat and a whiskey. At a party, I always complain about the lack of food or how crap is the music and I eventually leave bored and sleepy. I love a funny night out with friends (specially here in Dublin!) but I also enjoy being on my own on the sofa by the fireplace and my laptop, eating like an otter. Loved this post! x

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  11. Don't force yourself to go out if you don't want to!


    I'm quite a hermit. I don't like going out clubbing or anything, but most of my friends like to, which makes it difficult as I don't drink, and I don't like partying. Would prefer a night in with friends, just chatting, or go out for a meal and have a good old time that way! Plus, I love my TV shows - love a good marathon of shows.


    But I've been like this all through my teens to be honest, and as I gradually get to my mid-20s, there's no sign of it changing!


    www.alittletwistof.blogspot.co.uk

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  12. Nothing wrong with going out! I don't go out so often now, only if I really want to, I don't force it and I'm a lot happier now I've accepted it's OK, and even good to be this way! :) xo

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  13. In all fairness, I don't own enough makeup brushes to warrant their own storage space! Who knows what the future holds eh?

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  14. Mine was for New Year's but even then it was just a few rooftop drinks, sans bar, with my best friend!

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  15. Definitely! Ooft a whiskey-fuelled chit chat is ideal to me.

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  16. Definitely! Nothing beats a night in with a fresh boxset and some scrapbooking for me (:

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  17. Definitely better not to force yourself eh!

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  18. I've always felt that you're a blogger that stands out from the rest. You're not afraid to experiment with what's new and trendy, but at the same time you stick to your roots of being the perpetual homebody you adore being. I really like that! :) Keep dancing to the beat of your own drum because that is one sick beat.

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