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On being a Taylor Swift fan, being Fearless and celebrating 1989.
It's #TS1989 day and I've been waiting a hella long time to begin my Taylor Swift takeover on Daisybutter. From today - the release date of her 6th album, 1989 - to Taylor's 25th birthday on December 13th, I'll be running themed Taylor blog posts at 13:00. Don't lie, you're excited.

I remember when Fearless was released. It was possibly one of the highlights of my college days. I remember feeling uncertain about friendships (i.e. about 95% of mine ditched me when I went to college and them to sixth form) and I also remember becoming firm friends with my girl Natasha who also adored Taylor. And I remember feeling so empowered by Taylor's little notes on being 'fearless':
'To me, Fearless is not the absence of fear. To me, Fearless is having fears. Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. Fearless is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again… even though every time you’ve tried before, you’ve lost. It’s Fearless to have faith that someday things will change. Fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can’t breathe without them. And when someone apologises to you enough times for things they’ll never stop doing, I think it’s Fearless to stop believing them.' - Taylor Swift
Fearless, to me, means taking complete charge of your life again. It's having confidence in the things you do, small or big. It's about being so shy that the idea of speaking to a sales assistant on your own feels alien to you, but then five years later you find yourself conquering your shyness by speaking your mind even when you still feel shaky inside. Fearless is having fears but going ahead and doing it anyway. Easier said than done, right? But it's also about believing that someday you can be completely fearless in a world that loves throwing all sorts of #CRAY at you.

Every time I hear Fearless or a song from the album, I remember 2007 and how timid I was. I was a mouse. A tiny mouse who thought she liked words, no, loved words, but had no idea what to do with that thought. I remember meeting best best friends, I remember realising that I could become a "writer" one day and sell my words if I tried hard enough and believed I could. I remember going on a first date with someone and genuinely 'trying not to get caught up now'. I remember thinking how things couldn't get much better than this (also in my best dress). I remember the first time I saw Taylor Swift live on the Fearless tour, and then again on the same tour.

"Capture it, remember it."

What does Fearless mean to you?


  1. I absolutely LOVE this idea for a blog series. I like the optimism and dreaminess of Fearless. Is this daily? Such dedication!

  2. Thanks Alyse! It won't be daily - it's going to be weekly instead but should be tackling all sorts of song titles, ideas and quotes.

  3. Totally bawling my eyes out having just read that quote three times over. So apt right now I can't even tell you Michelle, thank you!
    So so proud of you and so excited for everything coming your way. Can't wait to see more posts in this series :)
    Fearless is definitely gonna be my new mantra xx

  4. I got my Fearless album for christmas and since I hated school at that time, often coming home crying. I would always listen to it to help cheer me up :) I also remember I got it when I was 15 and so got really excited about there being a song called fifteen on the album :P Fearless is probably my favourite song by Taylor (although it's so hard to choose since I love her so much!) and when she performed it at her Red tour in February I was practically crying! if I ever get a tattoo I've decided I would quite like for it to say Fearless :)

  5. Oh Michelle, this made me tear up a little :') I've always adored the 'take a leap into the unknown' message of Fearless. Like you this album definitely came at a time in my life when I was just discovering my inner confidence and I still blast out Change when I'm feeling really crappy.
    I eagerly await your posts for the rest of this series, feel like these posts have been a long time coming for you :P Xx

  6. I love Fearless. I've only been a Taylor 'fan' for a few years now (after realising I really really liked all the songs she'd released) but I think Fearless is up there with my favourites, I love the album and this song always makes me a little bit teary. I listened to the album so much when I was about 15/16 and it always takes me back to then x

  7. Fearless is one of my all time top 5's, seriously so nostalgic and carefree, brings back so many memories!!


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