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A few thoughts about feeling content and also feeling scared. Of feeling content.
Something that I talk about a lot is feeling content. That feeling when you don’t need anything more or want anything more, and you’re happy with everything in that precise moment. I’m a super chilled out kinda person - if you hadn’t already noticed - but I’m also wildly ambitious and I worry a lot. There exists in my mind, an ongoing thought of “feeling scared of feeling content”.

In the competitive world of the modern age, it’s almost frowned upon not to be a career woman and not to constantly want the world and more. I finished my degree over 2 years ago and remember being wildly ambitious and determined, with naivety and shyness making their mark at the same time. But having fought through those worries, beginning my own business, (semi) forgetting about what other people thought of my decisions not to move out, I realised that even though I’m not where I expected to be, I’m content anyway. I’m content with learning tens of new things every day in my job, of hanging out with my sister (the best friend and blog photographer a girl could have), of having to take a car, bus, train and Tube to get to London, and even of taking a step back from little ol’ Aesthetic.

For me, in a sense this stems from my involvement and indulgence in the blogging community, where the sheer number of bloggers and indeed blogs overwhelms me. Back when I began penning this blog, there was only a handful of us chatting about mundane everyday things on Twitter. Today? Everyone is buzzing about XYZ press launch, the newest YSL launch, why so and so isn’t talking to so and so (and if you’re lucky, their work), and it’s SO easy to feel lost in the midst of it all. To feel like sitting at home writing and watching Netflix all day err’day is wrong and a waste.

I hate the fact you always feel like you have to be going somewhere, like the end destination is to be finished, or to be happy. But the truth is a lot of us are completely lost, and we don’t know, and that is also a state of mind, to not know who you are and where you’re going. by Lykke Li

Feeling scared of feeling content… Does anyone else feel like this? Like you shouldn’t ever have to “settle” at any point in life. That you should always be working yourself to the bone? I realised and put this to rest a few weeks ago and my oh my are things feeling good. Actually, I’m feeling even more content.

PS. Can we all take a moment to appreciate the excellent doormat in today's post?


  1. Feeling content is underrated. As long as you find a work/life balance that you're happy with, nothing else matters. I've always been of the mind set that you should work to live not live to work. There are more important things in life.
    Coming back to blogging after starting all those years ago I totally agree that everything has changed. It all seemed so laid back before and I loved all the Twitter chats everyone used to have.

    Bloglovin // Twitter // BethDeJour Blog

  2. I never thought about being scared of being content. I used to be terribly depressed (I use that term loosely, as i wasn't clinically depressed) and down in my mid twenties, always wanting more, never satisfied with what I had and I felt like my life wasn't going the way I had hoped. Fast forward a few years, I feel with age I am living and loving life much more, with all it's ups and downs and really appreciating what I have :) I think it's important to change aspects of your life that get you down, like jobs, friends, location and even our wardrobe...hmm I need to spring clean my clothes again ;)

    Thanks for making me realise to just enjoy being happy Michelle!

    Hanh x | hanhabelle

  3. I'm feeling like this so much of late! I feel like I'm at such a crossroads in terms of career, and lots of other things too. Sometimes it takes a lot just to sit back and relax a bit.

    Meet you on the night flight to Marrakech yeah?xxx

  4. Ahh I feel like this alot, although sometimes it's more of a scared to be happy type feeling..
    I think it's important to always have goals to reach for though and that the whole feeling of being 'content' should maybe just be a moment and not a long term feeling xx


  5. I struggled a lot last year finding my balance to feel content and accomplished. I am still tweaking that aspect of my life, but I feel less stressed about it now. Blogging definitely helps as an outlet, but granting myself time to commit to a post is still a strain and I am still working on that.
    Thanks for sharing your thoughts, Michelle. I think, from what I know, you have done an amazing job for yourself. Good on you!
    Carolyn | BLOG

  6. It's hard to feel content in the modern world when everywhere you turn, there is something rubbed in about something you don't own, or haven't done etc. I'm glad that my work is completely unrelated to social media and in a way is it's own little bubble away from this, just because I can go to work and feel really content about what I'm doing, then come home and a have a fairly good perspective on things. Blogging doesn't help if you approach it in the wrong way, but it can be great if you have a healthy outlook on life.

    Saskia /

  7. This is a great post. I too feel under pressure to be pushing pushing pushing all the time. Through mindfulness and meditation though I've realised how much more important that it is to be able to be calm and still on the insides at times. I'm much more content now I've established that rest is as an essential part of my routine as work. Nothing wrong with feel content - even if society does try to make you think otherwise!


  8. love this post, Michelle. i think we live in a society where we're frowned on if we're too happy with ourselves - we should always be striving for more more more. I read an article about the 5 most common regrets of the dying, and one of them was that they put work before other things they wished they had prioritised. i think that it's really just a way of saying that they didn't enjoy the smaller things in life because they were to concerned about the never-ending goals - that's not something we want to regret! being happy is the biggest success of them all. x

  9. I really love this post. I think when we are not content with our here and now it can create great unhappiness. Content doesn't mean lack of drive it just means appreciating what you have for now.


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