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This week marks 100 weeks since I moved back home from University. I've come a long way since my student days but in others I haven't at all. Before Uni, I hadn't even thought about the possibility of getting a degree. No-one talked about it and to some extent I naively thought it was out of my reach and not in my best interests, originally wanting to pursue fashion journalism. 3 years later, I left Uni as an ambitious, determined and very lucky graduate with more opportunities and prospects than most.

One of the biggest taboos about University life is that whole 'I'm not finding this as fun/exciting/fulfilling/etc. as everybody else' thought. Yup, that thought. In fact, I felt this almost immediately after enrolling to my course in September 2009. Again, no-one talks candidly about not enjoying Uni. I often felt overwhelmed by feeling ungrateful for my place; like an outsider for genuinely not wanting to spend my money on vodka and cheap shots; and like I was underachieving, finding things just a tad too easy (until final year woes took ahold of me, of course).

In many ways, my Uni life was different to others on my course and at my Uni. Let's go back to 2009/2010 when I began my blog and, consequently, before blogs grew wildly in popularity. I spent much of my spare time penning blog posts, reading blog posts and keeping up with fashion in digital media - a relatively new thing.

By a stroke of luck, Daisybutter completely spiralled to a level beyond my wildest dreams. I was nominated for 'blog awards', I began attending meetings in London during extended breaks between lectures and seminars, I'd then get back on a train in the evening and push myself to network and jump in to the burgeoning industry with both feet. This did me the world of good.

Like so many before me, I spent any spare moment during my student days interning. Internships and work experiences are now more valuable to show prowess and determination as well as a flavour of the industry than anything. But what I wasn't doing was figuring out which part of the industry was right for me. I interned endlessly at magazines, blindly assuming that would be the right thing for me, I also assisted at PR houses and with in-house PR, blindly assuming that the experience would be good 'to know'.

But actually, post-Uni? I haven't quite put my finger on what I want to be doing. 100 weeks ago, was I under the general impression that I'd now be a fashion journo? ... Mmm, yes. Life after Uni was a rough bump back to reality. Blogging and the blog industry - that's what I'm filing it under for now - comes relatively sugary sweet. Step it up and you need to keep swimming. Life after Uni meant starting my own business aged 21. It meant taking my social life back to penny-free activities when seeing friends, invoicing clients with no real expectancy of when "payday" would arrive, filing taxes and spending plenty of hours worrying about 'The Future'. None of my Uni worries and woes mattered. There's a huge stigma attached to even the idea of not doing what you studied at Uni. But it's okay to step away from that too.

Right now, I'm doing that whole annoying what-am-I-doing thing with myself. There's a whisper of an idea in my mind. No clue how to achieve it. Such is life.

TL;DR? 100 weeks later and I'm still not sure what I'm supposed to be doing, what I want to be doing or where I want to go. And actually, that's completely okay.

From one ambitious girl to another -- however you're feeling towards being a grown-up, whether you went to Uni or not, have a career goal in mind or not - keep your head up. No two stories are the same and sometimes it's maybe better to go with your gut, no information in hand, and see what happens.

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  1. I loved this post, thank you for sharing this. I'm freshman at uni now, last year I was studying in a completely different field than I am in now and I've had to take the decision to quit university after a year and change my major completely. However, I still am not really sure of what I want to do in my life and after uni life seems a bit scary to be honest.

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    1. Thank you Miglė, I'm glad you found it somewhat useful to read. That's incredible that you made that decision, I knew that my course was roughly what I wanted to do but in some ways do wish that I'd chosen to take a year out and really consider what I was doing. Life after Uni is fine - forget the pressure and just do you. x

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  2. As someone who is coming up to the end of first year at university studying fashion management I feel a similar way, I'm not a fan of drinking and I definitely spend far too much time on the internet working on my blog. I hated university at first and nearly dropped out but I'm really glad I didn't. I also applied (and got!) for the position of fashion editor at my university magazine, so between that, coursework, work experience & my blog I don't really have time to waste drinking - let alone the money.
    I don't have much of a clue where I want to end up after university but I'm applying for a variety of internships that have sparked my interest this summer. Something that's a bit difficult for me is attending university up in Aberdeen (basically the Scottish highlands) so London isn't too easily accessible for me! Luckily, more and more opportunities are popping up at home in Glasgow which is handy. Wishing you all the best in whatever you want to do, you deserve success x

    Charlotte / coloursandcarousels

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    1. That's exactly how I felt Charlotte! I started spending all my time on blogging, freelancing and being more involved in the industry. I almost dropped out in November of my first year and even now I wonder if I should have. Fingers crossed that you'll be able to find some amazing internships lovely, always an email away if you need help/tips! x

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  3. Love this... turning 26 in a few weeks, not having a degree and having no idea what I'm doing with my life or even what I want to is starting to worry me... I'll keep my head up if you promise to as well <3

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    1. Ah, thanks my lovely little one! No need to worry at all dear - I've stopped doing so. <3

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  4. I find this inspirational. I haven't been to uni as of yet - no idea if I really wish to. I want to further my studies but university does not appeal to me right now. This gives me hope in the sense that what I am currently doing with my life right now might not actually reflect the future I behold. "Step up and keep swimming" - love it xxx


    Kate ~ Beautiboe

    www.beautiboe.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. Thanks Kate! I just think it really isn't the be all and end all. Uni and that whole experience is just that nowadays - an experience. It's worth looking at other opportunities and paths if you're not sure! Always an email or Tweet away if you want a second opinion (:

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  5. Great post Michelle, I have my last hand-in on Tuesday and am petrified for the future! it's great to read something so honest, as 'I don't know where I want to be' doesn't seem like something you're allowed to say at the minute!

    xx

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    1. Aw thanks Danielle! I really think it's become taboo to not know what you want to do. Sure enough I'm ambitious but I've got so many ideas that where I 'want to be' changes daily, sometimes even multiple time daily. And if your final goal isn't directly related to your degree, I find that people don't quite 'get it' either. Such is life ;) x

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  6. This post is so touching baby girl! Needless to say I know exactly how you feel. Let's just move to Morocco and open a cat rescue centre?
    x

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    1. Woe is us Faz ): yes to the cat rescue centre. Chuck a few dragons in too, yes? x

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  7. I think you voiced the thoughts of so many who have had or are having similar experiences to you - and sometimes that's all you need to help push you forward, to know that you're not alone in feeling this way about uni, and about the future. I think in this "instafamous" culture these days, we feel under pressure to know what we want to do/who we want to be/how we're going to make our fortune, and frankly it gets a bit silly sometimes! if we all knew exactly what we're doing with our lives at this age, what's there to look forward to? xx

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    1. You've hit the nail on the head completely, Miho! I think in the sharing culture and even the built-up competitiveness that exists has added SO much pressure on everyone. It's so easy to compare yourselves to one another that it's a little scary to consider your own path. It's even more difficult to consider your own when others are thrust your way. Thanks for your comment lovely, so many good points. x

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  8. I've really enjoyed reading this post. I posted a 'life after uni' piece a couple months back. Its good to know that we're not alone in feeling like this, there's a whole generation of us. Which is a daunting prospect. I completely agree with the stigma attached to not doing what was studied at university. I did a psychology degree, numerous work experience posts and now what I really want to do is write. I have no idea how to get to that dream though. xx

    P.S Oh i also didn't enjoy uni as much, or the social life. The cliché going out and getting drunk was not what I was interested in.

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    1. Thank you Sam! It's really reassuring to have written this post and seen such lovely feedback. I guess back when I was in Uni, I was worried no-one else felt the same so I just carried on. My degree is somewhat relevant to some of what I think I want to do, but to be honest, I really don't know where I want to be. I think I want to be happy, to keep achieving and to do something in the world. (:

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  9. I remember you leaving uni, well, writing about it. You have so many years ahead of you to do things, and I think a lot of the onus is on knowing what you want to do rather than enjoying what you are doing. If it makes you feel better I am 30, married with a baby and still don't know what I truly want to do. I thought it was freelancing as a writer, but now I have the opportunity to go back to my comfortable job 3 day a week with less responsibility i've taken it. easy life, less money but more happy.

    Mucho love, Lauren | Belle du Brighton x

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    1. Ow you long timer, Lauren! I think, in the long run, I just want to enjoy what I'm doing and soak up the little things day to day. I'm still quite ambitious, but for lots of things as opposed to one huge end goal nowadays. S'alright I guess ;) x

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